communication breakdown

Sometimes I have the hardest time communicating. I spend a great deal of time perfecting what I want to say when writing or preparing for certain conversations. But in the spontaneity and "unscriptedness" of life I don't have the opportunity to prepare for every question thrown at  me or encounters I have with people.

I find myself wishing I could take my brain out and let others see what I'm trying to say because trying to relay what's running on the screen in my mind can be very confusing, which then leads to being misunderstood and can lead to frustration. It's moments like this when one of my greatest gifts and blessings feels more like a curse.