Happy Halloween!

Click the link to read The Raven by the great master Edgar Allan Poe. Enjoy and may you have more treats than tricks!

Just a Girl

Well in the grand scheme of life I am only a woman. Nothing spectacular about me to keep you here by my side or to make you want to try harder to be with me. I am obviously rather easily replaced in your mind and did I ever make it to your heart? I had hoped. But just because you passed on this does not mean that somebody else won't turn up and I'll be able to be the star in that universe. No, I am not angry. My pride is wounded a bit and I could sit and sulk that you so easily forgot me or I could take what I learned and choose to grow. Yes that is what I'll do. I guess I have to finally move past you too. Thanks for the chapter that you helped me to write in this book called my life.

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To explain:

I'll keep this simple. I wanted to be important to someone, I really did. I thought I had met someone special and for a short time he was but as much as I wanted to be with him there were certain things about me that I would not change and certain things about him that he would not change. Trust me I thought about it. I wanted to be with him. I also wanted to leave some sort of mark on him (you know that hope that it would be hard to get over me) but he has so already moved on and good for him. I am so glad that he is not like me in this respect and unable to let go of a relationship that was never really official. Today this is really bothering me. I keep writing in the hope that I will write it out of my system. I bear no ill will toward him and I really do hope for the best for him, I'm just sad that the best for him had nothing to do with me.

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Now Aisha it really is past time to move on... Let's go!

7 Days

I've been in my own place now for 7 days, a full week and do I love it? You bet I do! I did end up with the family cat though, grrr. Don't get me wrong I love the cat, he's great but he is old and needs lots of attention and he sheds fur everywhere. He also cries a lot, I think he misses my mom. Oh well she will be over to see him soon enough I suppose. I'm still trying to get things in order and there is no food in the house but I don't really care that much, the place is mine all mine and everything will be done eventually. Have a lovely week everyone.

5 Months

Yes, we are five months away from my 30th birthday! Just thought I would let you know.

The Evolution of Robin Thicke

This is the title of one of the best (and most anticipated) CDs of the year! Okay that is my own opinion but this is greatness in music form. This is in the neo-soul genre and is the second effort from Robin Thicke (son of "Growing Pains" star Alan Thicke). The music, the lyrics and mood set by this are a wonder. Definitely worth the 3 year wait since Cherry Blue Skies/ A Beautiful World. My favorite song is #11 Can U Believe. I would continue to gush but why when You Tube can bring the magic right to you. Enjoy!

2 The Sky


Lost Without U

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The only constant in life is change. Change is many times good and most times scary. Well I get scared anyway, when I cannot see how something is going to work out. In any case here are two of the recent changes:

Amazingly I still work at the airport but I am in a new department

I am moving at the end of this month (finally getting my own place, no roomates)

I tend to get worried about the airport job because, well it still is not a stable position. I'll still be working at Sbux to get insurance and all that jazz so I'll still be working 2 jobs. I should just be grateful that I have work at all. It is not easy trying to find a good job.

I am excited about my new place though. I'll be able to go home and do what I want without worrying about how it will affect someone else. I'll be able to have my friends over for dinner or drinks or games and anime or whatever the heck else I want. I will tell you this though, it is really hard packing. This is mostly because my mom and I are having to finally go through my grandmother's things. It's been four months and I still cry like a baby most days because I miss her so much. I'm keeping a few of her things such as t-shirts, shoes and her old robe. Her scent still remains in some of the items. In any case this part is no fun.

Oh well soon enough I will be in my own place and getting to know myself. Scared? A little. Excited? A lot. Feeling guilty? Not one bit.

Random II

... and had I known in the beginning that the end would seem to defeat me, would I have called in sick that day, lost a turn or maybe pretended not to notice? No, I don't think so. This will not get the better of me. I have so much to look forward to and so many other things to do. I'm sure that somewhere deep in me I believe that this is the ultimate truth. So I will say that it was good to meet you that day and take what I have. I'll be strong and say today will bring another tomorrow and perhaps another you to heal the current sorrow...